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I just never expected that the big one would happen to my life. I ever thought about it but never expected that would be so worse. This is too much, i just wanna go so far to face this big one. But at the end i can't avoid that fact. That just makes me hurt day by day. Sometimes i feel so hopeless but in the other side I'll be too strong and cool to face all this shit. Every smiles that i do there is a sadness that can'nt I exposed jst because i don't wanna make every favorite person in my life being sad. Cause that smiles is worth to wait here comes better days. 

Are these feelings even real ? Morning cofee walks with you I try a machiato and you like americano Then you smile with a coffee marks on your lips I'm just trying to figured it out You were so far away You are the dream i never wanna wake up from Is this what love feels like You're my favorite person to be around You keep my hand warm I feel for you in the coffeeshop Lets talk till the sun comes up Then we chuckled together Silent confessions when I'm with  you There is just something about you Ciw, Malang 28 April 2019

You are the kind of sweetest things that I fear I am such a funky and worried that you'll hurt me You're like my lecturer and I am a type of dumb colleger thats afraid to meet you I wish we dont have a class and i can spent time at my boarding house In another way In another world i will and i do to meet you I will and i do to make a sweet moment with you I wish you and I will go to the cofeeshop then i drink your cofee  You take the cofee from my lips and you ask 'Why does it taste so sweet?' Then I just chuckled While you smile at me Then you said, i see them here and the sons come to hug us We laugh so loudly  But  I  Know You and I just wasting time in vain because why? in this world you and i can not be us maybe our love is sin in this world so would you go to the other world with me? ciw, Malang March 31st 2019

"I never wonder about love. Eventhougt i felt alone washed away with this melody. Killing the night with my loneliness. I am used to be happy with my lonely. But why this song really related" Not too sad being alone Its really good time for me to show up I am happy with no reason Just happy, you? How about you? I sipped my cofee slowly There is no worry, No, NO! I relish all day long, all time Savoring my lonely night here The wave of this music blowing my mind  I feel this sensation Quiet and peaceful Strong cofee make me still awake I realized that this song really made my day In minutes 18.26 I ask someone about the tittle of this song They said this is a pretty good songs Than i ask again "What a tittle?" They said "Sad boy with a laptop - I was lost until i met you" Then i laugh loudly  I enjoying this song too much  ciw Malang, Feb, 9th 2019

(Yoongzbae on frame) Malang, 02 Desember 2018 When the night shrouded in rain And rain fall so fast like racing with the wind Its really mortify, I am fucking love you This feeling put me down I fall like a rain I don’t wanna stop till God say its over I am confined here Behind the rain and wind But your witchery push me on Its feel like you ruling of my life Honestly, you shrug off me All of this really hurt me I feel lonely because of you But i don’t deserve it Cause you are not mine I am a nobody for you this poem requests from @yoongzbae                                  

Malang, 25 September 2018 Its about 1,572.9 Km from you Its been a long trip Its about a long distance The way i am stand out here The way you sit down there There is the same thing Its located in ours heart Long time no see Long time no talk Only silence appears Its like we are a stranger Like an extraneous I decide to be silent But a heart still hurt I think you don't think so You act like there is nothing happens I act like i don't care But to be honest what looks doesn't look like that